I’ve been sick in some way or other this entire month: first with a flu I willingly acquired from the person I was dating at the time, then it mutated into a headcold, and since then it’s been constant allergies or something. I’m starting to get really frustrated and annoyed about it. Pretty much every time I get sick since I moved to California, it hangs on for an ungodly long period of time. I believe it is because of allergies, but I’m not 100% sure. Use of Claritin and a homeopathic remedy (natrum muriaticum) help, but are a slow process to spin up once sick.
What frustrates me the most is that I wasn’t like this when I left Washington state nearly five years ago. Granted, I got allergy shots for a long, long period of time when I was a kid, so maybe I’m used to Washington now. Should I go explore allergy shots for California? Or am I just over-stressed, and this is what is causing my body to react more than usual? I don’t believe that’s what it is, but it is possible. I suppose the answer to that would be to do some biofeedback and meditation and see what happens.
Anyway. I’m just venting. Siggraph is coming up, and I’m looking forward to that. It’s like vacation, but not. That’s what I view most travel as actually – an opportunity for me to get outside of my daily life and look at myself and my environment in a new light. This past month has been good for me from that perspective, and I’m beginning planning on a bunch of weekend jaunts to visit friends not seen frequently enough.
I get little notes from DailyOM each day which poke at me and remind me to live life the way I choose, which I really appreciate as I find it easy to ignore myself and get off track. A recent message about Kwan Yin really resonated, and I’m thinking about it quite a lot. Having compassion for others is a trait seen less and less in our society, and I realize that recently I’ve been stuffing that urge instead of acting on it. It occurs to me that it would be better to surround myself with other compassionate souls than to cave in to the pressures of the world in this way. More thoughts, and actions, are necessary. 🙂