Life is interesting right now. It seems like my life can be described as a series of long stretches of calm, punctuated by occasional brief episodes of tumult. The tumult is always “holographic”, as it were, by which I mean that it tends to occur in every angle of my life.
Not sure what leads to the tumult, but I’ve always classified it as “boredom”. That doesn’t quite capture the feeling completely though. It’s more like I become too comfortable: I get used to doing the same things everyday, I lose my motivation to make change, and then life slowly begins to feel less and less satisfying. At some point the dissatisfaction builds up until I make a series of radical shifts to attempt to put my life onto a more satisfying path.
Of course, there is no such thing as a “satisfying path”. Life is a journey, and all any of us can do in life is to pause when we’re feeling dissatisfied, pivot in place, think about why we’re feeling the dissatisfaction, find a direction that is more interesting to go at that time, and then put on the afterburners. When I’m at that pivot place, I never want to take a direction I’ve been before – why would I want to go back? I’ve already seen that place, tasted its flavors, explored it fully. Let’s check out something new!
So that’s where I’m sitting right now. I’m not thinking of moving to Paris, Kyoto, or something as radical as that. But I do need to do some purging of the objects I’ve accumulated on the journey which are no longer useful to me, reinvest time in relationships that are valuable to me, and focus once again on what I want to learn, and what I want to uniquely contribute to the world. Once I’m aligned with that I can hit the boost button and go off on the new adventure.
I’ve been putting this one off for awhile. Gotta take a deep breath and go for it. You know what I mean.